Whether it’s healthy or not, who knows. It works for me. There’s something deep-seeded and primordial that lives within me. And in order to relieve that pressure, I use various forms of therapy to help. One of those forms of therapy is listening to deep, throaty, guitar-heavy, angry, passionate music. It’s like I’m a pressure cooker, and filling my ears with this glorious noise releases the steam.
I’ve been silent for a while. Part of me hates that, part of me knows I needed it. Breaks, regardless of what they are from, are key to a healthy lifestyle for me.
Due to med changes and brain chemistry alignments, my depression has reared it’s ugly head yet again.
This is the kind of depression that I had when I was first diagnosed, and just getting on medication. So, it’s ugly and angry. And all I can do is keep fighting. It’s a silent battle. One I don’t like to talk about because it makes me feel weak. It’s a battle that is raging in my head while on the outside I seem… fine.
I love yoga. I also love Jesus.
Nothing against the beliefs that many yogis cultivate at all, I just don’t roll that way. I’ll be honest, I tried, and it felt right for a while, but then the Holy Spirit began asking me to become focused on Him during my time on the mat.
So I struggled to find a balance between my religious beliefs and the yoga that I love so much. I finally found my niche. When I get on the mat, I don’t praise myself for getting on the mat, I praise God for meeting me on my mat.
I use the time on my mat as a prayer session. I use it to invite the Holy Spirit to meet me where I am and thank Him for the time together. Yeah, I know He’s always with me, but my mat time is a special time where we get to be face to face. If you’re looking for a good place to start, check out Caroline Williams Yoga YouTube Channel.
I’m gonna be real with you, none of this is right, or wrong, it just works for me!
What works for you?!
I’d love to hear how you deal with feelings getting in the way of things you love?
Mania and eight hour days don’t mix. Then again, neither does introversion and going out to lunch with friends. So, I’m stuck!
That’s what I used to say. Since switching meds, and having to relearn how to manage my time at work, I’ve come across several things that have helped me get through.
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